Tuesday, April 8, 2008
now, when is she due?
The title of this post is probably the question I get asked most these days, "Now, when is she due?" And to that, my friends, I have no good answer. Well, I have an answer, but it takes a little while to explain. So, here's the explanation: When Aaron and I found out we were pregnant, we did the math and checked many of those online "due date detector-things" and figured out that my due date should be April 12th. Neat, my sister's birthday. Cool.
Okay, now my first every OB/GYN appointment was when I was about 5 weeks along. While there, my doctor did an internal sonogram to see what my due date would be. We were told April 22nd. Ok. fine.
Fast forward to our real true sonogram that we had around 20 weeks. The sonographer told us that the date the baby was measuring was April 14th, and almost always the doctor will change the due date according to what the baby measures (that's what she told us). And, it made sense, according to Team Wood's calculations. Great.
Well, folks, our doctor never "officially" changed our date like the sonographer said she would. As she said, "The baby will come when the baby is ready to come." Which, yes, I agree (mostly). So, we are due either the 14th or the 22nd. Take your pick.
Let's talk. My mom & lucky Lizzy (it will be her spring break) are coming on the 14th. Cool, fun, great! Hopefully, just in time to see this baby come and help me figure out how to do the "mom" thang. But, guess when the dr. said she'd induce me (if we came to that)??---April 29th. What?! (insert sigh here). Yeah. So, I have no idea what to expect anymore.
Hence, why I am writing this post at 5:20 a.m.
People always say, "You will never feel ready"---and I think I am believing that more and more each day. I am all mixed up in the "emotional" department. Don't get me wrong, I am not a blubbering mess and have been the most "emotionally stable" during this pregnancy than I ever have been (true story, ask Aaron). It is such a weird time right now. On the one hand, I am SoooOOoo uncomfortable (at night especially) and am SoooOOOoo excited for her to come and play and really see what she looks like, how she'll act, etc. So, in those moments, I want her to be here in two minutes!
But, on the other hand, I am petrified. I keep thinking "Who were we kidding?" and "how naive were we to think we were ready for this?" and "Me? a mom? Can I get a what? what?"--- I mean, we really have been wanting this for such a long time and it definitely was something we have been planning and preparing for... but to be a REAL TRUE LIFE MOM is... well... what's the word? overwhelming.
Deep breath. There, I said it. I know that I am not crazy in my thinking. I am sure most of you moms out there relate. I know it will be the greatest thing ever to have her here, but I worry. I totally blame my mom for that trait. CONFESSION: I am a worrier. But, yeah, most of you knew that.
This blog thing is funny. I mean, I know people are going to be reading my thoughts. Part of me cares and wants to "put on a happy face" (which, in all reality, I am truly thrilled about this baby) but then the other part of me wonders if it is okay, in this venue, to write down some of my "not so exciting and fun" thoughts. Get my drift, folks?
So, there it is. My jumble of thoughts. Take it or leave it. hA! So, ask me what date I am rooting for? I will tell you this, it just depends on actual hour of the day. Sorry. But, probably, in my heart of hearts, I am really wanting it to be sooner than later. I am DYING to see this little darling.
I am a walking contradiction---WhAa! (that was me, pretending that you are a baby, get it?) Good. It's settled. We'll let you know.
Oh, and I've posted some pictures of yours truly when she was a babe in arms. And a few of Aaron face too. Now the real question is, do you know who is who?? :)
Too many words can be tedious, don't you agree? And, who doesn't love to look at cute baby pictures? duh!